An offering at the neglected shrine of Venus
/Here is a poem inspired by the vibrant beauty of a June morning and my reading on the ancient goddess of Rome and other reading on today's weird social norms.
She was told she wasn't really pretty
and she believed it.
The first boy she loved at sixteen
said he loved her even though she was fat
Solid calf muscles and round biceps
from track and hiking are not glamorous
Her full-hips and strong abdomen
were not in the magazines or on TV.
She noted down the numbers,
At five nine, she should
be one thirty by that reckoning.
Her face was never perfect,
her eyes too small and squinted
But sometimes she'd catch a glimpse
of her own shadow or her face looking up
she'd follow the line of her body with her eyes,
thinking it wasn't so bad,
nothing there to drive disgust,
even grace of a kind, the health of nature
She was strong and swift.
She bent her mind to studies and career.
Twenty years flashed by before she knew it.
She scarcely thought of her body in all that time,
except to be thankful for health
and sometimes quietly to wish
that things could have been different.
How many times had she shouldered a pack
and hiked mountains or explored cobble stones
She built sturdy rock walls
with the husband she finally found.
He was not considered handsome either,
dumpy and overweight but strong as a mule.
And they decided dispassionately to throw their lots together.
She took care of her body's needs,
brushed her teeth and went for checkups
ate well and didn't smoke or drink.
But she rarely thought of it and rarely adorned it.
It was mostly just "it."
No mask nor jewelry,
except the thin gold of marriage
more a symbol than an ornament.
She pulled her long hair into a braid and called it good.
She had more important things to do
with her mind, with her heart, with her soul.
And the shrine of Venus grew dusty with disuse
When she comes to it at last after decades have passed
and looks at the lines across her face,
the flaws grown much deeper
and her body heavier and not nearly so strong.
Then she knows the price of offerings not left.
Now she places flowers before the shrine
and puts gems in her ears and sweet oil on her skin.
She gives honor to the goddess she forgot
and dances in the beauty of a crone's body,
good and true to the health of nature