You're an animal and that's okay

I’m off to get a guide dog. Barring some sort of catastrophe, I’ll have a new partner in magic and adventure by the time the next full moon rolls around. It’s been two long years of waiting and even after I was given a date, this opportunity was almost yanked away. But that’s another story. I’m going to focus on thinking positively about this one for now.

Both my potential animal sidekick and some of my recent reading homework for my MFA program have brought our own animal nature into sharp focus. In recent years, I made an implicit assumption that society and modern science have progressed to the point that everyone simply accepts that we humans are also animals. Various writers do state this obvious fact from time to time. And people mostly nod along.

Yet when confronted with evidence of our animal nature in daily life, many of us become distinctly uncomfortable. Whenever the topic of eating meat comes up in conversation, for instance—which is irritatingly often for me because of my medical ketogenic diet—the unwelcome elephant in the room is the fact that we too are animals.

During these conversations, those who eat animal meat generally don’t want to acknowledge that we are also animals, that eating meat means eating formerly alive creatures a lot like ourselves. At the same time. many enthusiastic carnivores don’t want to see or touch raw meat, Most certainly don’t want to butcher it or deal with the actual process of taking the life of an animal they’re going to consume. They have much less problem ripping up plants or even cutting down trees. Somehow that type of killing is more palatable. We’re animals after all, not plants.

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Those who don’t eat meat, on the other hand, often want to talk at length about the gruesome details of butchering and preparing meat. They nurse convoluted diatribes on how somewhere in our species’ distant past, our pre-human ancestors were purely vegetarian. Vegetarians and vegans are, in my experience, more likely to admit that we are animals, but they’ll argue that we are a special, vegetarian type of ape. Or at least we were supposed to be, harking back to a mythical golden age of innocence in the Garden of Eden they envision in Paleolithic Africa.

On the other hand, what most vegetarians don’t want to talk about is the 30,000 years since a lot of humans left Africa and what they realistically ate and how changes in diet affected our evolution, how those peoples who ate a lot of meat grew strong and lived healthier lives, while those who ate grain-based diets were mainly forced to do so through authoritarian social structures and the greed of their rulers. And they suffered stunted growth and malnutrition as a result.

Neither the omnivores nor the vegetarians seem very comfortable with the basic facts of our situation. We are animals. We must eat something that was previously alive, like all animals.

Vegetarians have many justifications about how animals are higher forms of life than plants and thus we are more guilty if we consume them. They are more likely to accept animals as our kindred, but they still want to draw a line between higher/more worthy and lower/less worthy lifeforms.

Omnivores often draw this line right around humans, and some of them tighten it around only some humans. If animals are less important, then we are free to kill and eat them, the standard carnivore logic goes.

From a Pagan, animist perspective, however, both of these views are self-deluding. The vegetarians are correct that animals are our kin. But their arbitrary line between animals and plants with its assumption of categories of more worthy and less worthy doesn’t stand up to scientific or spiritual reflection.

There are plants that consume meat. There are plants that move. There are animals that don’t move or barely do. There are animals that show no signs of consciousness or thinking. There are plants that cooperate in complex networks of communication. Plants react as if they feel pain.

A generation or two ago, it was assumed that animals did not feel emotional pain. And yet the emotional distress of grieving or isolated animals is so clear to see, if you spend much time with them. I believe that if people pay more attention to plants, we will see that they feel even more than just physical pain as well. The bottom line is that there is no hard line. No “us and them.” No way to escape the uncomfortable fact that we must eat formerly living beings to survive and those beings don’t want to die and may well experience pain as they die, all so that we might live.

That’s the rub, of course. We not only have to accept that animals are our kin and that animals may suffer for us to eat them, as vegetarians do. We must also accept that there is no virtuous, get-out-of-guilt-free card. Plants may be more silent in their pain and dying, but they still experience both. A tree surely has as much value as a fish or a chicken in any large spiritual scheme of things.

And yet, this discomfort with the necessity of death so that we may live, provokes a lot of blaming and shaming of those who eat meat. Take for example, how common it is for omnivores to be asked to accommodate vegetarians or vegans at a social event by keeping some of the foods free of animal products. And yet, even with a diet that is medically prescribed, I am more likely to be admonished about eating meat than accommodated, if I ask that some of the foods be ketogenic and thus mostly meat-based without any type of sugar or starch.

I’ve made vegetarian and vegan food for my friends and family on many occasions and will happily continue to do so, even if I have to make separate food for myself. I know many other omnivores who do this or who even adopt vegetarianism for that particular meal out of convenience. But never, not once, have I seen or heard of a vegetarian or vegan accommodating someone with a ketogenic diet who cannot eat much plant-based food by making meat available. It’s much more likely that the person with the ketogenic diet will bring their own food and even so, negative comments may be made about animal products being present.

This surprises me in progressive and Pagan spaces not only because it is discriminatory toward people with medical conditions that require a ketogenic or other meat-based diet, but also because I am prone to naive assumptions about progressives being open to science and objective realities, like the fact that we are animals. It’s even more confusing in Pagan spaces, because the sharp differentiation between animals and plants runs counter to our animist roots.

And yet, I can easily see why many Pagans have become vegetarian or vegan. For many it is a spiritual oath or commitment, like my oath to wear a head covering. For many it is ecologically based. Industrial meat production as currently practiced is one of our least sustainable food systems, though by far not the only problematic one. But at the same time, our traditions are clear that not everyone has the same spiritual requirements and we too are animals. In the end, it is not immoral to obtain what our animal bodies need to survive.

One of my assigned books in my MFA program is The Vegetarian by Kang Han, a Korean novel about a woman who suddenly becomes Vegan—not just Vegetarian actually—because of disturbing dreams about animal slaughter. Her family isn’t very supportive and she seems to intentionally cause scenes with her husband’s colleagues to highlight her refusal to eat meat. She eventually ends up in a mental hospital for anorexia as she stops eating anything at all and becomes obsessed with turning into a plant and living on sunlight and air.

The whole novel reeks of the refusal to accept that we are animals, right down to the explicit demand that the woman be accepted as a plant in the end. Given the sympathetic portrayal of the woman and the unpleasant portrayals of those who criticize her, it seems like the author supports vegetarianism and wants to distance human beings from animals. But in the end, the book makes a horrifying case against veganism as a kind of slippery slope to anorexia in a way that I doubt most western vegans would appreciate.

I’m not sure of the author’s intentions with that book, but I am starting to believe that like so many other taboos--the shunning of sex, the belief that pleasure is sinful and so on—this modern squeamishness about our animal bodies will inevitably, when taken to extremes, lead to disfunction, oppression and even mental disturbance.

Because I have a ketogenic diet, I’m often accused on Facebook of being anti-vegetarian or anti-vegan. I’m not against vegetarianism or veganism in the slightest. In fact, I wish both could be more widespread without severe health consequences because of the current sustainability crisis in our food systems. I support those who choose to take on these diets, whether they have health benefits or complications. As long as it is the individual’s choice, they should be supported in it.

The thing is that I ask that those who choose otherwise, especially those who must eat meat or even a ketogenic diet for health reasons, not be harassed, excluded from social events, made to feel disgusting or otherwise shunned. It is only on that point that I have disagreed with vegans and vegetarians online. We are animals and due to our evolution we are genetically omnivores. Many of us cannot adapt to a plant-based diet without serious health risks, primarily diabetes which does and will kill prematurely and rob what life one has left of energy and health.

I encourage young, healthy people who can to eat a mainly plant-based diet with low grain and sugar content in hopes that they may be able to avoid the necessity of a ketogenic diet as they age. We don’t know our individual susceptibility or adaptability, which is all the more reason to be careful. I can’t know if I would have been able to avoid my current restriction to a ketogenic diet if I had cut out grains and sugar earlier, but it is likely, given current research.

So, certainly, encourage healthy vegetarian diets with caveats about grains and sugar. But don’t shame those who can’t because it isn’t negotiable. We do not choose to be animals or to have genes from climates where our ancestors subsisted almost entirely on meat and fat. We all try to adapt to modern society as best we can.

And the bottom line is that I am an animal. My body needs nourishment that it can process safely. You are an animal. Your body is an animal body too, and that is okay. Even if your animal body needs meat to survive. And even if it doesn’t, but it needs plants to survive.

As Robin Wall Kimmerer quotes from Native American wisdom, “We are the ones who give thanks.” We cannot keep ourselves from taking life to live. If we refused, we would take life too—our own. As ethics are based in nature, eating plants or meat cannot be unethical. What animist ethics requires is gratitude and acknowledgement. It is not that you must not eat this or that. It is that you ought to give thanks and be mindful of the life given for you, rather than hiding from the truth under mountains of excuses and attempts to make yourself more pure than others.

We give thanks for all living beings that give us life. Together with all of our animal kindred, we are part of the cycle and we are humble before it.

Tarot basics 5: How and why to shuffle your Tarot cards

There are few joys I relish so much as holding a new Tarot deck in my hands. It’s like with a new book—the crisp feel of unblemished paper and the lovely smell. Only this is a “book” with infinite possibilities (and really nice pictures).

If you’re following along with my posts on Tarot and you have a new or new-to-you deck of Tarot cards and you have cleansed it (see this post for that step), you now have in your hands a unified language to access your inner voice, your gods, your ancestors and other wisdom besides.

But as long as it just sits there, it is just another nice book. Shuffling is the way we breathe life into it and allow it to speak with a dynamic and living voice.

Before you shuffle

But there is one thing you should do BEFORE you shuffle a new deck of Tarot cards.

If you bought or received a brand new deck from a store, you will find that the cards are organized in a specific manner. All the Higher Arcana cards will be together and in order. Each suit will be in order from Ace to King (or whatever your deck calls these roles).

If you aren’t yet experienced with the cards, it might be good to look through them in this order You will, for instance, likely notice that different colors dominate in each suit, unless the deck your have chosen has a color scheme that covers the entire deck. You will notice that the visual aesthetic of the Higher Arcana is more grand, lavish and detailed than that of the Lower Arcana. You may find that the lower numbered cards in each suit have a lighter, simpler feel to them, while the higher numbered cards tend to get more complicated.

Take a moment, while the cards are so handily organized for you to look through the suits and observe how your deck feels and what aesthetic sense the various parts convey. If your deck is used and not in this order, it is well worth your time to organize it and make these observations as well.

However, when you are ready to do a reading, the deck needs to be shuffled. Even if you have been given a used deck, you will need to shuffle the deck well before using it. This is also an extension of the energetic cleansing.

Forging the connection

The animist and universalist theories of energy say that Tarot cards work because they have their own inherent energy (i.e. vibration or soul, depending on how you look at it), which interacts with the reader’s energy and with that of anyone the reader asks about specifically. Many readers visualize energy, usually imagined as light, going from themselves and into the cards as they shuffle. This is because while the cards provide a language for communication, its nuance comes from connection to the specific individual reader.

There are two types of shuffling in my view: 1. Deep, thorough shuffling for new decks or for times when your cards have been handled by others or for periodic reordering, usually after a cleansing, and 2. Standard daily shuffling before each reading.

You can shuffle by holding the deck in one hand and taking out a few cards from the middle to move to one end or the other of the deck. Do this over and over again. For every day readings that is usually how I shuffle.

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I don’t recommend bending the cards as you do when shuffling playing cards. Tarot cards are made with slicker, usually more rigid material. In order to bend them sufficiently, you would have to damage the deck.

But it is a good idea to give your cards a more thorough shuffle the first time you use them or before a major reading or significant holiday, such as the Winter Solstice. The best method for a deep, complete shuffle is to place a cloth on a clean flat surface and scatter the cards on it face down. Then run your hands through the cards in circles, making sure to move every card around thoroughly.

The motion is like that of a toddler finger painting and it can make some people uneasy because it seems unsophisticated and childlike. There is actually something to be said for that though. The Fool is the classic symbol of the querent, the person who is seeking answers from the Tarot.

While the figure is called “the Fool” as if they are silly or frivolous, that isn’t really the core meaning of this historical term. The meaning is much more about playful openness, like that of a child. So, this childlike form of shuffling is well suited to the Tarot.

Beyond that, this is simply the best method to thoroughly mix the cards and reverse some of them randomly with a minimum of wear and tear to the deck. I have decks I have done this with for twenty years, and they are still in fine shape.

The swirling of the cards on a flat surface allows your intuitive energy to be the main influence on the cards, rather than the physical constraints of the shuffling process or random static electricity.

I always have a tendency to close my eyes for part of the shuffling process. You may also call upon (either out loud or in your mind, depending on circumstances) any powers or spirits that may aid you in your search for answers. Some people will call on a deity or deities, which is perfectly appropriate with Tarot. Others will call on ancestors, angels, elements, nature spirits or the energy of the solar or lunar phase of the moment.

All of these energies are present regardless and will almost certainly have an influence on the reading, whether or not they are explicitly called. For best communication, it seems advisable to acknowledge them and welcome their influence positively.

The method can be simplified like this:

  1. Write down or record your question or intension.

  2. Place the cards face down on a cloth over a clean, flat surface.

  3. Mix the cards thoroughly by pushing them around the cloth with spiraling motions of your hands. Allow every card to be separated from its neighbor and turned around multiple times.

  4. Visualize the light of your energy entering the cards and swirling around with them through your hands.

  5. Call on your spiritual allies, gods, ancestors, guardians and the like to aid in your search for answers.

  6. State your intention or question out loud.

While this method ends with a question or intention, it also works as an initial shuffle to familiarize your new cards with your energy. The intention then might well be simply to open communication with these new cards and ask them to become your allies.

The importance of recording your intention at the outset

Notice that the first step is actually writing down your intention or question. When you do a reading it is essential that you write down your question in advance. There are very few rules that I will say you must abide by in Tarot, but this is one. I will discuss it and the layout of basic readings in the next post.

This rule will save you endless confusion, doubts, arguments and mistakes. Write your question down in your journal, datebook or on a scrap of napkin. It doesn’t really matter where. Even if you don’t want to or can’t stop to take notes on this reading, write down the question at least.

It is astounding how your memory will trick you and bargain with hard truths by subtly changing your question if you don’t do this. If you want the Tarot to do more than tell you soft, fuzzy affirmations of what you want to hear, then this is an essential step.

How does it work?

Once you have thoroughly shuffled the cards, you can do simple readings by shuffling the cards gently in your hands. They are already connected to your energy.

I shuffle more intensely if I’m reading for someone else. I either have to focus my mind entirely on the other person during the shuffling (such as when doing a long-distance reading) or allow the other person to shuffle using the thorough method above.

Why shuffle once the cards are mixed up? And how can a randomly drawn card have any specific message for you anyway?

I’ll cover these topics in depth next time, but for now remember that Tarot comes out of an animist or universalist view of nature with the assumption that there is an energetic level of reality in which everything is interconnected and thus there are energetic connections to everything and everyone else living now and even at different points throughout time.

It is through these connections, as unseen as radio waves or gravity and yet no less real, that Tarot works by reflecting things you know in your subconscious, things other people know, things the land and other entities know and possibly things known in other times and places. How much knowledge the Tarot can access for you, is likely to correspond with the permission you give it. This doesn’t necessarily mean that you must believe firmly that the Tarot will work for it to work, but a hard disbelief would tend to create a hard barrier against knowledge.

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Arie Farnam

Arie Farnam is a war correspondent turned peace organizer, a tree-hugging herbalist, a legally blind bike rider, the off-road mama of two awesome kids, an idealist with a practical streak and author of the Kyrennei Series. She grew up outside La Grande, Oregon and now lives in a small town near Prague in the Czech Republic.